Someone dedicated this song to me... It is a beautiful love song, but a sad one too....Still figuring out the meaning behind it....
Searching to vanish in a noiseless, restless night
I can never find my memories
Can't find the truth that has been forgotten
A lifetime and a world has passed, little by little you've abandoned me
Suffering, sorrow, heartache, bitter hate, painfully losing you
Perhaps separating is not easy, perhaps loving devotedly is not possible
Suffering, sorrow, heartache, bitter hate, painfully losing myself
Love is deep but affinity is shallow, it's not satisfactory; you and I know how to cherish it
We can only wait until within the next life
To set foot on the beginning of our mutual story again
Life by life, world by world, in an endless dream
Occasionally going over my journal
Going over the story between you and I
Piece by piece, these memories, these memories already have no meaning
Suffering, sorrow, heartache, bitter hate, painfully losing you
Perhaps separating is not easy, perhaps loving devotedly is not possible
Suffering, sorrow, heartache, bitter hate, painfully losing myself
We can only wait until within the next life
To set foot on the beginning of our mutual story again
Friday, October 19, 2007
360 degrees of Life
Hiyaa good people! Life sure is a tricky, mysterious yet fun thing. I learnt yesterday that sometimes, or most of the times, some decision or event can still make a "U-Turn", even at the end of it. That's the beauty and one of the mystery of the world... I guess.
I guess for me now is to accept things as it happens and learn the most from it. Take it day by day and Insya Allah, by a simple twist of fate and ketentuan-Nya, ada sinar dihujung jalan. Yang penting, we have to enjoy what we do and do what we enjoy. You can have your cake and eat it too! Just need adjustments plus good attitude.
As my dearest told me yesterday and I quote, it's not about your way or my way, we have to create OUR OWN WAY. Yes, that is the way, and I hope we could actually do that. The word is COMPROMISE, people.
Oklah, gotta split. Laterzzzz...
I guess for me now is to accept things as it happens and learn the most from it. Take it day by day and Insya Allah, by a simple twist of fate and ketentuan-Nya, ada sinar dihujung jalan. Yang penting, we have to enjoy what we do and do what we enjoy. You can have your cake and eat it too! Just need adjustments plus good attitude.
As my dearest told me yesterday and I quote, it's not about your way or my way, we have to create OUR OWN WAY. Yes, that is the way, and I hope we could actually do that. The word is COMPROMISE, people.
Oklah, gotta split. Laterzzzz...
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Harian Metro: Usah Lihat Rupa, Harta
Guys, I kinda like this article becoz I cud relate to it soooo much.. So, I decided to post it:
MELESTARIKAN cinta antara pasangan memang mudah jika tahu caranya. Cinta antara pasangan, ada yang sehaluan bahkan tidak kurang yang mengundang banyak masalah dalam perhubungan.Ukuran cinta seseorang wanita bukan bersandarkan pada rupa atau harta semata-mata. Ketulusan, pandai berkomunikasi, prihatin dan sikap mengambil berat lelaki mampu mencair hati golongan hawa.Namun, adakah semua lelaki memahami naluri halus wanita? Kebanyakan lelaki sukar menelah kehendak dan keinginan yang tersirat di hati jika lelaki tidak belajar mengenal nilai, sikap, kehendak naluri dan psikologi wanita itu sendiri.Ada kalanya wanita menangis sendirian kerana teringatkan lelaki yang disayangi, tetapi lelaki bagaikan tidak peduli bahkan jarang menghargai kasih sayang yang dicurahkan.Fahamilah kehendak dan perasaan serta pemikiran wanita sebelum anda menilai diri wanita itu sendiri. Luhurnya sesebuah cinta bukan hanya disandarkan pada rupa namun pemahaman, penghargaan lelaki terhadap perasaan wanita, kasih sayang serta kesetiaan lebih bernilai daripada segalanya.
- Apabila seorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi tidak menitiskan air mata, itu bermakna dia sedang menangis dalam hatinya.
- Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan anda selepas anda menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik berikan masa untuknya menenangkan hati sebelum anda meminta maaf.
- Wanita sukar mencari benda yang dia benci mengenai orang yang paling dia sayang (sebab itu ramai wanita yang patah hati apabila hubungan itu putus di tengah jalan).
- Sekiranya seorang wanita jatuh cinta dengan seorang lelaki, lelaki itu akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya walaupun ketika dia sedang keluar dengan lelaki lain.
- Apabila lelaki yang dia suka dan cinta merenung tajam ke matanya, dia akan cair seperti coklat!
- Wanita memang sukakan pujian tetapi lazimnya tidak tahu macam mana hendak menerima pujian.
- Jika anda tidak suka dengan gadis yang sukakan anda separuh mati, tolak cintanya dengan lembut. Apabila wanita sudah buat keputusan, dia akan lakukan apa saja.
- Sekiranya seorang gadis mula menjauhkan diri daripada anda selepas ditolak cintanya, biarkannya untuk seketika. Sekiranya anda masih ingin menganggap dia seorang kawan, cubalah tegur dia perlahan-lahan.
- Wanita suka meluahkan apa yang mereka rasa. Muzik, puisi, lukisan dan tulisan cara termudah mereka meluahkan perasaan.
- Jangan sesekali memberitahu perempuan yang mereka langsung tidak berguna.
- Bersikap terlalu serius boleh mematikan selera wanita.
- Apabila pertama kali lelaki yang dicintainya dalam diam memberikan tindak balas positif, misalnya menghubunginya melalui telefon, si gadis akan bersikap acuh tak acuh seolah-olah tidak berminat. Tetapi sebaik saja ganggang diletakkan, dia akan menjerit kegembiraan dan tidak sampai 10 minit, semua rakannya akan tahu berita berkenaan.
- Sekuntum senyuman memberi seribu erti bagi wanita. Jadi jangan senyum sebarangan.
- Jika anda menyukai seorang wanita, cubalah mulakan dengan persahabatan. Kemudian biarkan dia mengenali diri anda dengan lebih mendalam.
- Jika seorang wanita memberi seribu satu alasan setiap kali diajak keluar, tinggalkan dia sebab dia memang tidak berminat. Tetapi jika pada masa sama, dia menghubungi anda atau menunggu panggilan daripada anda, teruskan usaha memikatnya.
- Jangan sesekali mengagak apa yang dirasakannya. Tanya dirinya sendiri.
- Selepas seorang gadis jatuh cinta, dia akan sering tertanya-tanya, mengapa tidak bertemu dengan lelaki itu lebih awal.
- Kalau kamu masih tercari-cari cara paling romantik untuk memikat si gadis, rajinkan tangan menyelak buku cinta.
- Apabila setiap kali gambar kelas keluar, benda pertama yang dicari wanita ialah siapa yang berdiri di sebelah buah hatinya kemudian barulah dirinya sendiri.
- Bekas teman lelaki akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya tetapi lelaki yang dicintainya sekarang akan berada di tempat teristimewa iaitu di hatinya.
- Satu ucapan 'hai' saja sudah cukup menceriakan harinya.
- Teman baiknya saja yang tahu apa yang sedang dia rasa dan lalui.
- Wanita paling benci lelaki yang berbaik-baik dengan mereka semata-mata hendak menawan kawan mereka yang paling cantik.
- Cinta bermaksud kesetiaan, ambil berat, jujur dan kebahagiaan tanpa sebarang kompromi. - Semua wanita mahukan seorang lelaki yang cintakan mereka sepenuh hati.
- Senjata wanita adalah air mata!
- Wanita suka jika sesekali orang yang disayanginya mengadakan kejutan. Mereka rasa terharu dan rasa dirinya dicintai setulus hati.
- Wanita mudah jatuh hati pada lelaki yang ambil berat dan baik terhadapnya.
- Sebenarnya mudah mengambil hati wanita kerana apa yang dia mahu hanyalah perasaan dicintai dan disayangi sepenuh jiwa.
MELESTARIKAN cinta antara pasangan memang mudah jika tahu caranya. Cinta antara pasangan, ada yang sehaluan bahkan tidak kurang yang mengundang banyak masalah dalam perhubungan.Ukuran cinta seseorang wanita bukan bersandarkan pada rupa atau harta semata-mata. Ketulusan, pandai berkomunikasi, prihatin dan sikap mengambil berat lelaki mampu mencair hati golongan hawa.Namun, adakah semua lelaki memahami naluri halus wanita? Kebanyakan lelaki sukar menelah kehendak dan keinginan yang tersirat di hati jika lelaki tidak belajar mengenal nilai, sikap, kehendak naluri dan psikologi wanita itu sendiri.Ada kalanya wanita menangis sendirian kerana teringatkan lelaki yang disayangi, tetapi lelaki bagaikan tidak peduli bahkan jarang menghargai kasih sayang yang dicurahkan.Fahamilah kehendak dan perasaan serta pemikiran wanita sebelum anda menilai diri wanita itu sendiri. Luhurnya sesebuah cinta bukan hanya disandarkan pada rupa namun pemahaman, penghargaan lelaki terhadap perasaan wanita, kasih sayang serta kesetiaan lebih bernilai daripada segalanya.
- Apabila seorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi tidak menitiskan air mata, itu bermakna dia sedang menangis dalam hatinya.
- Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan anda selepas anda menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik berikan masa untuknya menenangkan hati sebelum anda meminta maaf.
- Wanita sukar mencari benda yang dia benci mengenai orang yang paling dia sayang (sebab itu ramai wanita yang patah hati apabila hubungan itu putus di tengah jalan).
- Sekiranya seorang wanita jatuh cinta dengan seorang lelaki, lelaki itu akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya walaupun ketika dia sedang keluar dengan lelaki lain.
- Apabila lelaki yang dia suka dan cinta merenung tajam ke matanya, dia akan cair seperti coklat!
- Wanita memang sukakan pujian tetapi lazimnya tidak tahu macam mana hendak menerima pujian.
- Jika anda tidak suka dengan gadis yang sukakan anda separuh mati, tolak cintanya dengan lembut. Apabila wanita sudah buat keputusan, dia akan lakukan apa saja.
- Sekiranya seorang gadis mula menjauhkan diri daripada anda selepas ditolak cintanya, biarkannya untuk seketika. Sekiranya anda masih ingin menganggap dia seorang kawan, cubalah tegur dia perlahan-lahan.
- Wanita suka meluahkan apa yang mereka rasa. Muzik, puisi, lukisan dan tulisan cara termudah mereka meluahkan perasaan.
- Jangan sesekali memberitahu perempuan yang mereka langsung tidak berguna.
- Bersikap terlalu serius boleh mematikan selera wanita.
- Apabila pertama kali lelaki yang dicintainya dalam diam memberikan tindak balas positif, misalnya menghubunginya melalui telefon, si gadis akan bersikap acuh tak acuh seolah-olah tidak berminat. Tetapi sebaik saja ganggang diletakkan, dia akan menjerit kegembiraan dan tidak sampai 10 minit, semua rakannya akan tahu berita berkenaan.
- Sekuntum senyuman memberi seribu erti bagi wanita. Jadi jangan senyum sebarangan.
- Jika anda menyukai seorang wanita, cubalah mulakan dengan persahabatan. Kemudian biarkan dia mengenali diri anda dengan lebih mendalam.
- Jika seorang wanita memberi seribu satu alasan setiap kali diajak keluar, tinggalkan dia sebab dia memang tidak berminat. Tetapi jika pada masa sama, dia menghubungi anda atau menunggu panggilan daripada anda, teruskan usaha memikatnya.
- Jangan sesekali mengagak apa yang dirasakannya. Tanya dirinya sendiri.
- Selepas seorang gadis jatuh cinta, dia akan sering tertanya-tanya, mengapa tidak bertemu dengan lelaki itu lebih awal.
- Kalau kamu masih tercari-cari cara paling romantik untuk memikat si gadis, rajinkan tangan menyelak buku cinta.
- Apabila setiap kali gambar kelas keluar, benda pertama yang dicari wanita ialah siapa yang berdiri di sebelah buah hatinya kemudian barulah dirinya sendiri.
- Bekas teman lelaki akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya tetapi lelaki yang dicintainya sekarang akan berada di tempat teristimewa iaitu di hatinya.
- Satu ucapan 'hai' saja sudah cukup menceriakan harinya.
- Teman baiknya saja yang tahu apa yang sedang dia rasa dan lalui.
- Wanita paling benci lelaki yang berbaik-baik dengan mereka semata-mata hendak menawan kawan mereka yang paling cantik.
- Cinta bermaksud kesetiaan, ambil berat, jujur dan kebahagiaan tanpa sebarang kompromi. - Semua wanita mahukan seorang lelaki yang cintakan mereka sepenuh hati.
- Senjata wanita adalah air mata!
- Wanita suka jika sesekali orang yang disayanginya mengadakan kejutan. Mereka rasa terharu dan rasa dirinya dicintai setulus hati.
- Wanita mudah jatuh hati pada lelaki yang ambil berat dan baik terhadapnya.
- Sebenarnya mudah mengambil hati wanita kerana apa yang dia mahu hanyalah perasaan dicintai dan disayangi sepenuh jiwa.
Selamat Hari Raya Everyone! Dalam tawa, ada tangisan..
Salam Aidilfitri to all the people out there!! Hope this Hari Raya was a great one and a happy one for all of you. I will be updating my Raya log in another post, but in this one, I want to talk about something else... What happened before Aidilfitri....
I don't even know how to start, and I don't even know what I am feeling rite now. Things are kinda dazed and blurry for me. I feel sad, hurt, relieved, depressed and many mixed feelings rite now.Three guesses.... yeah guys, someone broke my heart...
At this point of time, I am still trying to think whether is this how it felt when someone dear to you breaks your heart? Is it because I am in denial? Or is it because I already accepted what had happened? Or is it because things are not resolved as I thought it is?
Why do people have to be so mean in breakin' people's heart? Duh?? Hehe.. of coz they do. Entahlah, maybe its because if I am THAT person, I wouldn't want to hurt people's feelings. I am a peacemaker, not a warmaker (is there such word???). If I am not dear to you anymore, just say it in simple words, not hurtful ones.
Entahla guys, sometimes I just wonder, what is wrong with me?? People around me say, there is nothing wrong, you are not on the losing side. Betul ker? If so, why am I hurting??
At the end of the day, kita kene pegang ni.. Ajal, maut, jodoh telah ditentukan-Nya. Allah swt dah tulis jalan hidup Kamilah Muhammad Abdull Jamil. Insya Allah, di sebalik musibah ini, ada satu ketentuan dan hikmah yang telah ditentukan-Nya. I always believe, Good things happen to good people. And I will try my best melalui zaman keperitan ini, dan menanti sinar di hujung jalan sana..
As my dearest friend told me after this tragedy, Kamy Good Girl...Dia tough! Insya Allah my friend.. I will try my best. I will be 100% Ok soon..with my good support system, my positive attitude and doa berterusan. Dengan izin-Nya, I will be A BETTER and more successful person coz what had happened for the past 2 years is not a waste at all, tapi satu PENGALAMAN yang amat berharga buat insan bernama KAMILAH MUHAMMAD ABDULL JAMIL.
I don't even know how to start, and I don't even know what I am feeling rite now. Things are kinda dazed and blurry for me. I feel sad, hurt, relieved, depressed and many mixed feelings rite now.Three guesses.... yeah guys, someone broke my heart...
At this point of time, I am still trying to think whether is this how it felt when someone dear to you breaks your heart? Is it because I am in denial? Or is it because I already accepted what had happened? Or is it because things are not resolved as I thought it is?
Why do people have to be so mean in breakin' people's heart? Duh?? Hehe.. of coz they do. Entahlah, maybe its because if I am THAT person, I wouldn't want to hurt people's feelings. I am a peacemaker, not a warmaker (is there such word???). If I am not dear to you anymore, just say it in simple words, not hurtful ones.
Entahla guys, sometimes I just wonder, what is wrong with me?? People around me say, there is nothing wrong, you are not on the losing side. Betul ker? If so, why am I hurting??
At the end of the day, kita kene pegang ni.. Ajal, maut, jodoh telah ditentukan-Nya. Allah swt dah tulis jalan hidup Kamilah Muhammad Abdull Jamil. Insya Allah, di sebalik musibah ini, ada satu ketentuan dan hikmah yang telah ditentukan-Nya. I always believe, Good things happen to good people. And I will try my best melalui zaman keperitan ini, dan menanti sinar di hujung jalan sana..
As my dearest friend told me after this tragedy, Kamy Good Girl...Dia tough! Insya Allah my friend.. I will try my best. I will be 100% Ok soon..with my good support system, my positive attitude and doa berterusan. Dengan izin-Nya, I will be A BETTER and more successful person coz what had happened for the past 2 years is not a waste at all, tapi satu PENGALAMAN yang amat berharga buat insan bernama KAMILAH MUHAMMAD ABDULL JAMIL.
Monday, October 01, 2007
Monday.. Oh my, is it October already?
Aiyah, how fast time flies. Suddenly it is the tenth month of the year, and it is only another two before the new year. So many dreams not yet achieved, so may things not yet done. I think I got to really drive myself this last two months, so that I will end 2007 with glory and feelin I have accomplished something.
The weekends were very very hectic for me. You know what, I went bowling with my training team Saturday morning. When we got there, the alley was empty and we can only hear the thumping of the bowling balls. Ehehe.. Bulan puasa ni, and yet managed to play 5 and 1/2 games. Giler betul. Bulan tak puasa mmg dah pancit. Well I guess, consistency is still the issue in my games. But, last Saturday my game was quite membanggakan where I won 4 out of 5 games. Hehehe..I guess need to sharpen the throwing skills and get more consistency.After the Ramadhan, have some tournaments lined-up. Kene la tunjuk skill skit...Next saturday, still in planning whether to practice again before the Raya break. At least, I cud bakar all the lemaks in my body.. some kind of exercise too.
Then, got my AHM breakfasting event. It was great to see and chat with some of my old friends. But somehow, seeing them with kids and expecting kids and passing wedding cards.. it was quite depressing too. Bile lah I got the chance to pass MY WEDDING CARD? I hope really soon, Insya Allah. I got to make a presentation on the AHM blog and I did. Just one hour before the event did the presentation slides completed. Hahaha.. I got to improve my planning skills...... anyway, it was fun and a success.
The Sunday - I started it as early as 7.45am. Left house for a seminar in Kajang until 1.30pm. Then, got message from mummy dearest to queue up for the FAMOUS POPIAH in section 14. So, I shoot there straight away and do my share of queuing. Imagine there is a quite long line at 2.30 pm.. Dasyat betul penangan popiah utara nieh, even the price hiked up to RM1/piece. Well, if the demand is there... naik baper ringgit pon orang beli. Then singgah KJ Pasar Juadah to get tepung pelita & karipap. Then got my new spectacles. Bukan apa, an incident happened before and I realized I don't have a spare, so I made a new one. Then when to Subang to deliver a kitten to my friend. Since it was quite near berbuka puasa, I decided to berbuka first in Subang, then start back my journey to Melawati for the buka puasa event at Wa sayang's house. Balik tuh, ngantuk giler.. terus dozzed ...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
Oh ya, I fell in my bathroom. The fall was quite bad.. fortunately nothing was seriously injured. Cuma blue black all over and my right hand sakit sket. Cemerkap betul laa...hehe...it was quite a horror one too.
Aiyahh, something came up. Will update more and more.. Sementara masih ada semangat nieh..
The weekends were very very hectic for me. You know what, I went bowling with my training team Saturday morning. When we got there, the alley was empty and we can only hear the thumping of the bowling balls. Ehehe.. Bulan puasa ni, and yet managed to play 5 and 1/2 games. Giler betul. Bulan tak puasa mmg dah pancit. Well I guess, consistency is still the issue in my games. But, last Saturday my game was quite membanggakan where I won 4 out of 5 games. Hehehe..I guess need to sharpen the throwing skills and get more consistency.After the Ramadhan, have some tournaments lined-up. Kene la tunjuk skill skit...Next saturday, still in planning whether to practice again before the Raya break. At least, I cud bakar all the lemaks in my body.. some kind of exercise too.
Then, got my AHM breakfasting event. It was great to see and chat with some of my old friends. But somehow, seeing them with kids and expecting kids and passing wedding cards.. it was quite depressing too. Bile lah I got the chance to pass MY WEDDING CARD? I hope really soon, Insya Allah. I got to make a presentation on the AHM blog and I did. Just one hour before the event did the presentation slides completed. Hahaha.. I got to improve my planning skills...... anyway, it was fun and a success.
The Sunday - I started it as early as 7.45am. Left house for a seminar in Kajang until 1.30pm. Then, got message from mummy dearest to queue up for the FAMOUS POPIAH in section 14. So, I shoot there straight away and do my share of queuing. Imagine there is a quite long line at 2.30 pm.. Dasyat betul penangan popiah utara nieh, even the price hiked up to RM1/piece. Well, if the demand is there... naik baper ringgit pon orang beli. Then singgah KJ Pasar Juadah to get tepung pelita & karipap. Then got my new spectacles. Bukan apa, an incident happened before and I realized I don't have a spare, so I made a new one. Then when to Subang to deliver a kitten to my friend. Since it was quite near berbuka puasa, I decided to berbuka first in Subang, then start back my journey to Melawati for the buka puasa event at Wa sayang's house. Balik tuh, ngantuk giler.. terus dozzed ...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
Oh ya, I fell in my bathroom. The fall was quite bad.. fortunately nothing was seriously injured. Cuma blue black all over and my right hand sakit sket. Cemerkap betul laa...hehe...it was quite a horror one too.
Aiyahh, something came up. Will update more and more.. Sementara masih ada semangat nieh..
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