Well, what can I say.. IT IS MONDAY! But honestly I did not expect it will turn out this way today. In between someone hinted that I am not dependable and to some other people telling me that I am fat, I could not even find a way to feel positive about today.
Well, I guess I just have to take that slap in the face, apologize (if required) and move on with my life. Really not feeling good about myself at the moment, feeling extremely fat and highly emotional. What a combination, ya?
Last weekend was a mixed feeling weekend. My brother's father in law passed away on Saturday.. Takziah to Uncle Wan's family. Semoga Rohnya Dicucuri Rahmat. Sitting there during the funeral really taught me some things. I guess I am scared if something happen to my dad. There are still things to do, to say, to share and lots of love to be given. Hence, people, spread the love today, before it is too late......
I figured out something last weekend during the funeral. One of the things I love about the person I love is he is so adaptable to situation. He is so natural in some ways and also pure. That's why I love him, I guess. I also learnt some things about hiding feelings and expressing them in a totally puzzling manner.. Haha..What am I rambling about here??
Anyways, the story about not be dependable enough, just say that I delivered something that is not timely enough and it happened to cancel other people's plan. Man, did I screwed up or what. It was a total mess, I felt so horrible. But to top that horrible feeling, is that someone said that I am not dependable. It's like icing on the cake, a bad cake that is. I still can feel the nausea in my stomach - the guilt. He did not have to slapped me in the face with that statement. But hey, maybe I deserved it. I guess the saying, 'one mistake can erase all the good' is some how true. I felt every good things have been erased by this mistake. I feel bad for not delivering up to the expectations. I just hope that deep inside the people can find a way to forgive me rather than avoiding me.
About being fatty and all, I don't know what is wrong with my metabolisme.. IT is too DAMN slow... Hope that this new challenge will renew my WILL POWER to some how shed a lot of KILOS..
OK guys, will update later.. It is work time.. Chiow!
Monday, June 18, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Vitamin Z Deficiency
Lately I feel so sleepy and tired.. It does not help when I stayed up just to watch Qabil Khusry Qabil Igam last two days. What was I thinking? Haha... Really need a good shut eye..maybe this weekend.. maybe never.. haha..
Lots of things happened since I last wrote in the blog. Last Thursday, had dinner with some of my best girl friends at one of the best restaurant in KJ - Aladdin. Love the food there.... Did not had lunch earlier, so like that night like order everything. Thank God all of us were starving.. jadi.. LICIN semua.. :) Forgot about DIET and anything related to WEIGHT masa tuh.
Friday night, went to my college seniors wedding, only to find out how near was her house to my office. Nampak sangat lah ignorant nyer.. Ate dinner and then got a cake at nearby bakery for my auntie. So early Saturday morning, had a birthday party for her..Last weekend was a family weekend for us. We went shopping for our raya outfits - this year's theme : Orange & Purple. Then watched Shrek in KLCC. On Sunday, early morning go catching our cats - to send for Kembiri. Then Low Yatt to buy notebook for the "Little One". Lucky her.. When I was her age, mana lah ada notebook nih..
Sunday evening, came in office and do some stuff. Then, siapkan myself in the Surau and went of to Sheraton Subang for my best friend's wedding. Lin, your wedding reception was beautiful and you are beautiful too! Congratulations to both of you.
Monday till now.. Kerja Kerja Kerja..Someone told me that I looked damned tired. I guess I do. Sleep deprived and lots of thinking job.. I feel like a ZOMBIE right now. But why am I still here? I don't know why.. haha.. I guess I need a pay rise. Yeah right...
So people, something that I found out today.. Sometimes when you think highly of a person, it can dissapoint you. Sometimes you feel that some other people should learn how to manage other people feelings, especially when you seek their assistance. You could be a near perfect person, but hey man, a simple math - when you ask for something nicely, you will get it nicely.
Chiow for now.. trying to think about something that may change my career direction.. haha.
Lots of things happened since I last wrote in the blog. Last Thursday, had dinner with some of my best girl friends at one of the best restaurant in KJ - Aladdin. Love the food there.... Did not had lunch earlier, so like that night like order everything. Thank God all of us were starving.. jadi.. LICIN semua.. :) Forgot about DIET and anything related to WEIGHT masa tuh.
Friday night, went to my college seniors wedding, only to find out how near was her house to my office. Nampak sangat lah ignorant nyer.. Ate dinner and then got a cake at nearby bakery for my auntie. So early Saturday morning, had a birthday party for her..Last weekend was a family weekend for us. We went shopping for our raya outfits - this year's theme : Orange & Purple. Then watched Shrek in KLCC. On Sunday, early morning go catching our cats - to send for Kembiri. Then Low Yatt to buy notebook for the "Little One". Lucky her.. When I was her age, mana lah ada notebook nih..
Sunday evening, came in office and do some stuff. Then, siapkan myself in the Surau and went of to Sheraton Subang for my best friend's wedding. Lin, your wedding reception was beautiful and you are beautiful too! Congratulations to both of you.
Monday till now.. Kerja Kerja Kerja..Someone told me that I looked damned tired. I guess I do. Sleep deprived and lots of thinking job.. I feel like a ZOMBIE right now. But why am I still here? I don't know why.. haha.. I guess I need a pay rise. Yeah right...
So people, something that I found out today.. Sometimes when you think highly of a person, it can dissapoint you. Sometimes you feel that some other people should learn how to manage other people feelings, especially when you seek their assistance. You could be a near perfect person, but hey man, a simple math - when you ask for something nicely, you will get it nicely.
Chiow for now.. trying to think about something that may change my career direction.. haha.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Proton Surges On News Of Partnership, Investors Still Cautious Business, June 07, 2007 16:53 PM
Is it for real now? We have waited long enough...
KUALA LUMPUR, June 7 (Bernama) -- Proton Holdings Bhd, which was up sharply this morning on news that it is close to forging a partnership with Volkswagen, remained high in the afternoon although Sime Darby denied it is buying Khazanah Nasional Bhd's 43 percent stake in the national carmaker.The surge in Proton shares is not a surprise as it is a reaction of investors who now would welcome any partner for the ailing national carmaker after a long and complicated search for a partner to help it to turn around, a dealer noted.The shares of the national carmaker rose to a high of RM7.05 this morning after reports said Volkswagen is likely to take equity and management control of its key operations.At 3.56pm, Proton was traded 60 sen higher at RM6.45 while Proton call warrants rose 25.5 sen to 89.5 sen.The price is still below the RM7.00 - RM9.00 fair value for Proton shares put forward by research houses. For instance, RHB said the fair value for Proton is at RM8.60.An analyst said investors are generally cautious and awaiting further details considering the difficulty Proton faced in clinching a partnership deal in the past.According to news report, Volkswagen will acquire a 51 percent stake in a new company which will hold Proton's assets such as manufacturing, research & development, engineering and also its UK unit, Lotus.Proton will retain its distribution unit, it added.-- BERNAMA
KUALA LUMPUR, June 7 (Bernama) -- Proton Holdings Bhd, which was up sharply this morning on news that it is close to forging a partnership with Volkswagen, remained high in the afternoon although Sime Darby denied it is buying Khazanah Nasional Bhd's 43 percent stake in the national carmaker.The surge in Proton shares is not a surprise as it is a reaction of investors who now would welcome any partner for the ailing national carmaker after a long and complicated search for a partner to help it to turn around, a dealer noted.The shares of the national carmaker rose to a high of RM7.05 this morning after reports said Volkswagen is likely to take equity and management control of its key operations.At 3.56pm, Proton was traded 60 sen higher at RM6.45 while Proton call warrants rose 25.5 sen to 89.5 sen.The price is still below the RM7.00 - RM9.00 fair value for Proton shares put forward by research houses. For instance, RHB said the fair value for Proton is at RM8.60.An analyst said investors are generally cautious and awaiting further details considering the difficulty Proton faced in clinching a partnership deal in the past.According to news report, Volkswagen will acquire a 51 percent stake in a new company which will hold Proton's assets such as manufacturing, research & development, engineering and also its UK unit, Lotus.Proton will retain its distribution unit, it added.-- BERNAMA
Wishing for the stars...
Aiyak.. actually yesterday I wrote quite a long entry but sadly the network weng during saving the post and wallaaaaa... my long sad mushy entry is gone. Aiseh, cannot replicate my feelings at that time, yet sadly I am still on the not feeling good time of the year.. *Sigh*
I have this feeling that I have been walking on a very long street and suddenly come to a possible dead end. During the long walk, been through a lot, sacrifice a lot, had fun, had tears shed, etc etc. And BAMMM!!! Walked into a wall, where I am rite now. I think my mind started to feel fear, started to feel that I am not going to get what I wished for. The indicators are like flashing like mad in my eyes but I felt like out of control. Starting to feel more sensitive to every single little things. But hey, I think some of the things - I DESERVE IT! hehe that's my selfish side writing.
But hey, my fren said and I quote, "Kalau kita nak membina, mmg susah dan payah. Tapi kalau nak runtuhkan, dalam sekelip mata ajer boleh jadi". I am holding to that thot. Eventhough I was distracted by series of questions throwed to me yesterday - R U Sure with your choice? R U ready with everything? Think wisely.......
My answer now - Entahlah....I really don't know. The creepy feelings I thot I never had is filling my head. My heart is aching and head spinning. Just please show me, tell me, everything is going to be OK, everything is going to be as planned.
Ya Allah, tunjukkan lah jalannya....
I have this feeling that I have been walking on a very long street and suddenly come to a possible dead end. During the long walk, been through a lot, sacrifice a lot, had fun, had tears shed, etc etc. And BAMMM!!! Walked into a wall, where I am rite now. I think my mind started to feel fear, started to feel that I am not going to get what I wished for. The indicators are like flashing like mad in my eyes but I felt like out of control. Starting to feel more sensitive to every single little things. But hey, I think some of the things - I DESERVE IT! hehe that's my selfish side writing.
But hey, my fren said and I quote, "Kalau kita nak membina, mmg susah dan payah. Tapi kalau nak runtuhkan, dalam sekelip mata ajer boleh jadi". I am holding to that thot. Eventhough I was distracted by series of questions throwed to me yesterday - R U Sure with your choice? R U ready with everything? Think wisely.......
My answer now - Entahlah....I really don't know. The creepy feelings I thot I never had is filling my head. My heart is aching and head spinning. Just please show me, tell me, everything is going to be OK, everything is going to be as planned.
Ya Allah, tunjukkan lah jalannya....
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
The crappy feelings continue...
Well, what can I say.. the day just became a little bit crappier today as much as I tried to put positive things and thoughts into it.. I am a positive person, I think, but what happened today just not as what I really wished.
Have you ever felt that you have tried everything you could for someone, and at the end of the day, you feel that it was soooo wasted? Well, that is how I am feeling at this point of time. I think the effort that I meant started so longgg ago, a year maybe.. But today I learnt something. Sometimes you can kiss the land for that some one, the land which he is walking on, and yet it meant crap to him. It is just so tiring, energy consuming, not to even start on thinking on the other things consumed. Ahhh, Malas lah! Knowing me, I will just forget and forgive after this. Unspoken but still hurt like hell.
So, here I am again in the office, coming in the night shift. Haha, cam team breadown assist lak. A little bit here and there needs to be updated and completed so that I can have a happy life tomorrow. (Doubt it!) Not to complaint, but maybe today is not a GOOD day for me, so it effects everything.
Never-mind lah. Just trying my best to complete today.
Hope for a better tomorrow. Insya Allah.
Have you ever felt that you have tried everything you could for someone, and at the end of the day, you feel that it was soooo wasted? Well, that is how I am feeling at this point of time. I think the effort that I meant started so longgg ago, a year maybe.. But today I learnt something. Sometimes you can kiss the land for that some one, the land which he is walking on, and yet it meant crap to him. It is just so tiring, energy consuming, not to even start on thinking on the other things consumed. Ahhh, Malas lah! Knowing me, I will just forget and forgive after this. Unspoken but still hurt like hell.
So, here I am again in the office, coming in the night shift. Haha, cam team breadown assist lak. A little bit here and there needs to be updated and completed so that I can have a happy life tomorrow. (Doubt it!) Not to complaint, but maybe today is not a GOOD day for me, so it effects everything.
Never-mind lah. Just trying my best to complete today.
Hope for a better tomorrow. Insya Allah.
Sweet memories
Hello & Mornin everyone! Feeling a little bit crappy this morning due to feeling of sickness in this big head of mine. Can feel the veins trobbing like mad, saying hey don't wake up.. we want to continue to bang your head. So, I guess, lemme zzzzz for a while. Hence, to be continuedzzzzzz...... Good people in office.. I'll try to be back soon.
Monday, June 04, 2007
La La La
Singing in the rain.. It is raining again, hope KL will not be flooded today. Then it will be damned jammed in the KL. Luckily I am not in KL. Sometimes I salute people who commute to KL. How do they do it?
It took me that LONG!
Well, if you see my last post date, it was somewhere in 2004. Don't change your screen or even try to refresh your page. It is TRUE!!
It took me nearly 3 years to write again after registering my blog. I wonder why. People keep asking me for my blog.. I have one but again nothing is there. Hence after a "pembakar semangat" speech by a long friend of mine, I re-open this blog.
The truth was, I am afraid that I am not interesting enough. That is funny rite? My friend said just now - its your blog, write what you want, why let others intimidate you. She's right. I guess deep down I always fear that I will be seen as shallow. Hahaha.. maybe in some sense that is true.
But dear readers, I hope that this will be a start to a beautiful blogging experience. 4th June 2007.. here I come, blog world.
Hope the next post is not written in 2010. I only wish.
It took me nearly 3 years to write again after registering my blog. I wonder why. People keep asking me for my blog.. I have one but again nothing is there. Hence after a "pembakar semangat" speech by a long friend of mine, I re-open this blog.
The truth was, I am afraid that I am not interesting enough. That is funny rite? My friend said just now - its your blog, write what you want, why let others intimidate you. She's right. I guess deep down I always fear that I will be seen as shallow. Hahaha.. maybe in some sense that is true.
But dear readers, I hope that this will be a start to a beautiful blogging experience. 4th June 2007.. here I come, blog world.
Hope the next post is not written in 2010. I only wish.
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